Monday, July 7, 2008

Lazy Days?

First of all, no new least not with me.

I dropped off my precious babies at the airport on Tuesday and watched their plane take off for only the second time in my life. They are on their way to Florida to visit their father for turns out to be 7 weeks. I miss them terribly! They will have such fun seeing their father.

Sunday--my youngest went to stay with her father for a whole week! That is the longest she has been gone in her whole life! I am on total withdrawal!

Now to my lazy days!

I sleep on a twin bed, new mattress--thank you Da! next to my mother each night. I either stay up until around midnight for that round of meds or else set my alarms to wake up for THE REGIMEN. I then try and go back to sleep. Now for those of y'all that know me, not an easy task. I am again awakened by a second alarm at 6 am for those meds. Sometimes during the night I am awakened for a bathroom break. Needless to say, I am not getting a whole lot of rest.

I have thought long and hard about this.............there is NOWHERE I would rather be. Although I don't really enjoy what I am doing, I don't want anyone else doing these things for my mother. I feel truly blessed to be the one taking care of her. Doing this makes me realize something, cancer, in any form, inhales vigorously!

I have to admit, I cry way to often! NEWS FLASH you say? NOT!!! Every little loss of independence she experiences is a very real loss of quality of life. I know how hard it is for me to witness these things, how hard must it be for her to live through?

On a side note, I have the most wonderful husband! He has been working for something like 3 weeks straight. He is my rock! I come home to work and cry on his shoulder and he just lets me. He doesn't give me grief about being gone too long or my being such a baby. There is a reason God sent him to me. I just hope he knows how much I love him.

Thanks for all your kind notes, calls, letters and such. I truly love all y'all!


Yeargains said...

We love you! Hang in there and give mama a hug from us!!

Love Lisa, Brian, Hannah, Hailey, TJ, Parker and Payton

TonyaKuykendall said...

hey I found your blog today. Good "talking" to you. Come see us Wacoans sometime.

Steven & Adrienne said...

I just found out about your mom...and I am truly sorry. Please know that we are praying for the Lord to bless you and your family with peace and comfort, and and outpouring of love. I love you guys, and I loved your mom. You guys have always meant so much to me and my family. Thanks for always being such a great example to me as a youth. I truly looked up to you and your family. Know that we will be praying for you guys, and that we know that your mom is at peace now. We love you and admire all that you did for her. Give your dad and siblings a hug from me.

Adrienne, Steve, and kids

On Our List said...

I am so sorry to hear about your mom. You did an amazing job of taking care of her and I know she appreciated it. We are praying for you guys and love you very much. May the Lord fill your heart with peace at this time.

Sharon, Doug, and family